SOMETHING ELSE

i was working on a CHOOSE JESUS #2, but something else came up. Just thought i would share with you all. Does anyone ever get that insecure, anxious kind of feeling? Not the anxiousness of worry that is sin, but more like God is doing something and i have no clue what it is. Not that God does not love me or that He is not able, because i KNOW he is. Not doubting God at all really, not that earthshaking. It's like i just do not know what is going on sometimes? Like i wish God would just hit me up the backside of my head and show me clearly what to do step by step? Yea, that is what i am feeling. Kind of like a mushroom that grows in the damp darkness. Not the darkness of sin, but of uncertainty. Not that i am part of the body, but my place in the body. Not that i do not know what God expects of me every day, but that i do not know what the body expects of me everyday. Sometimes i just feel really tired. Not physically, but spiritually. All my life i have been more of a loner. One or two close friends at any given time. It seems that in this world, as a follower of Christ, it is not so different in that respect. i find also being a single woman is a challenge in the body as well. i guess we all have our challenges, our trials, our uncertainties.

i do know, without my God, i would be lost. Not just my soul, but my very existence here in life and eternity. These times of uncertainty can only be overcome by God and my pressing in closer to Him. Without God, i am absolutely nothing. He is absolutely all i am in this life and eternity, and if some days i am uncertain of everything, then He is enough. Thank you my Lord God, Father, creator of heaven and earth, of all that is seen and unseen, you reign in my heart and my life. Thank you Father, for your Son, my Saviour, Jesus the Christ, who reconciled, redeemed, restored me to you and secured my place with you forever and ever, amen. And thank you Father, for the Holy Ghost who leads me to all truth in you. Who comforts me on your behalf and leads me in your ways everlasting. Praise God the Father, Son and Holy Ghost, all Glory be to you, amen.

i guess i am not so uncertain after all...